Slow down, the world isn't watching us break down.

sunday, did art research, need draw eyeballs. i feel super excited for art now, got the bouncy feeling. haaa.

sister keep asking me go eat lunch with her, but super lazy. bro and sis ask me go lan with them==, well because mom keep the plug away, but for now, i secretly using it ba. sis is addicted to audition, she audi siao already, because her comp acc dont have the audi program then she keep like come in my acc play, i think i change the password la :B give her hell.

tomorrow chinese o level. nehneh, i havent study the compo format. actually today going study it with mayb huilin, jiongrui one. then ask ivan along also. but jiongrui say if ivan go, will pull him go play, then never go already. plus, super lazy. i dont care, no a1 then no a1 la, shutup.

My whispers turn to shouting, the shouting turns to tears, your tears turn into laughter, and it takes away our fears.
So you see, this world doesn't matter to me, i'll give up all I had just to breathe the same air as you till the day that i die.

I can't take my eyes off of you

svc, fast till svc over. never eat breakfast and lunch. slacked around.

left arnd 6 plus, train back to srg, circle line meet sylvia, janicia and andy. took circle line to bishan, dinner@ kfc. went arnd bishan to find unity, super stupid.

then back to srg, ice cream@ mac. andy keep saying " fat le la."

kept looking at the track, like never see before like that. kampong kids la them.

i become super pathetic sia. my mom dont let me go out at night alr, like arnd 10+ 11 la. kns. she rather i use comp till 2 am also dont let me out. knsknskns! sibei buay song la nb. gmdfm,gnsdfkjgnsdflkgnskldfnglksdfngklsndflkgnslkdfgnklnkldsfngklsdfnhklsdfnlghknsdfklhnsdfklnhklsd

i ruin it when i still do. why like that?

i'm sorry. it's my fault, am selfish.

goodbye love.

well, im in deep trouble now, got back report book, 3 c5 4 U. nicest result i ever got in my life man seriously. everything affects it. no one to blame, blame myself. ftard. 45/48, what happen sia.

after school went home bathed, changed then went back school wait for leezhongyin. went huimin house, nothing to eat, ate rotiprata, then i cui already, buay tahan, head super pain. okay, took alot of photo today, will upload them on facebook, 4n1's group.

mom called me, asked me what happen to my result, i got nothing to say, she kept talking and talking, she always never give me chance to explain. but well, she did it because she's upset. i hanged up her phone because what she kept repeating what she say, then she called me and asked me where am i, asked me to go home quickly. then when i reached home, she said nothing. she asked me to eat my dinner. :( i know you care, im sorry. xin ku ni le.
sometimes i wonder, so is it good or not good?

home, slept till 10+.

i think it's because we are both tired of this already.

i miss..

decision made, i continued art. start everything afresh, because, the theme i do last time, sibei suck, i dont like. so now need do everything again, chiong ba. hope i can do it.

chem lesson, play with the acid. :) fun.

after school, went mac with huilin, shujuan and nat. hmm, obviously ate mac, ice cream only. then went for time practice, laugh all the way, kelly super retarded. she kept saying "come-suck-ha-mi-gua." then she do retarded action, love her huh. haaa. after time practice, accompanied shujuan, vv, and huilin to bus stop, see them board bus then go home. today too tired to laugh already.

came home, slept till 9pm. woke up chiong art logo research, now only got 20 plus logos. by monday, own target, 100 logos, 10 research picture, fonts ready, and maybe 10 sketches. weekend, can forget about it already.

havent eat medicine yet. dont like. :S

k dont waste time already, go do art, bye dickheads.

how i wish this is my bf.

well never go for school lesson. went for time practice instead, i went there to play, laugh, talk, see.

before time practice, went for the mr lee chun kiat talk, how sia, should i drop art. wasted. i dont know i dont know.

after time practice, went central, then went home. mom brought me to the doctor, never go before one, mayb got but very very young that time. the doctor crazy one sia, cannot blow aircon/fan for 3 days, cannot bathe for 3 days, every one hour need drink one cup of hot water. then he never give me MC also. puki la.

sibei stressed up nowadays, too much things to care for already. i wish i could not care, but i cant bear to leave, so long already. force also wont happy. how ah how ah how ah how ah how ah!

wa stress stress stress stress.

i dont feel love.

ARRRR come on la i miss perth :(

no school later :D dont need go, go see doctor.. get MC!
now 2.01am, still awake, k la, got to go sleep morning go see doctor. \m/
btw,channel u got national anthem now , wth. ==
H-A-P-P-Y!
GOODNIGHT :D
love you darling.

I found the phone I must've missed your message

You got it wrong, It wasn't what your friend said.

Tell by your tone, I've taken it too far again.

(Just when I thought I'd gone and fixed it all again.)

Your friends are telling you, You gotta move on.

(Just when I thought I'd gone and wrecked it all again.)

You turned around so I could tell you what took so long.

I don't know why i ever waited to say.

Cuz I'm just dying just to see you again .

Instead of holding you, I was holding out.

I should've let you in, but I let you down.

You were the first to give ,I was the first to ask.

Now I'm in second place, to get a second chance.

I should've known, took you and I for granted

Gotta let you know, I was never underhanded.

Tell by your tone, I've taken it too far again.

(Just when I thought I'd gone and fixed it all again.)

My friends are telling me they saw you with someone.

(Just when I thought I'd gone and wrecked it all again.)

You turned around so I could tell you what took so long.

I don't know why i ever waited to say.

Cuz I'm just dying just to see you again .

Instead of holding you, I was holding out.

I should've let you in, but I let you down.

You were the first to give, I was the first to ask.

Now I'm in second place, to get a second chance.

My last mistake, putting my friends first.

I tried to laugh it off but I made things worse.

You were the first to give, I was the first to ask.

Now I'm in second place, to get a second chance.

What you give is always what you get.

There's so much I haven't given yet.

If you could give another second chance.

(Just when I thought I'd gone and fixed it all again.)

it's too late already.

J.Q:"kevin dont move, coming out already." squeezing pimple in action.
my sexy laughing friend. :x

shit it man, my head is bombarding. the flu and cough just wont stop. suck, i think i will give school a miss tomorrow ? :B ( thumbsup)

i went to school today, because of phototaking. chinese lesson slack in class, tcher never turn up for class. poa, mr lam said i blog about him == okay, big deal. haaahaha. english, mr lim not here, went li-bra-ry slack. then recess.

maths after recess, buay tahan already, slept. then art, free period weehoo! because i dropped it. at first me and kevin drop then now almost every people in the class motivated to drop, because they cant stand it already. how nice hahaha! art actually used to have 9people, now left 3pathetic kids. arr so sad for them, holiday extra lesson, 1 june, 3 hours of art for them? sad day la friend.

after school, stupid time practice, huilin and i laughed all the way, super tiring. i dont know why we laugh for, i only remember the marshall f the grandmother only. and clement, enter-tayning me huh hahaha. huilin fell down when we were about to leave the auditorium, she just fell on the stairs, not like gee tat, he fell and roll down the stairs of auditorium when he's sec one, and went for stitches, L4L ya huilin. hahahaha.

lunch opposite school, i drank something super bad for health, mayb for now only. that may be the cause for my head, now. sucks.


so what, it makes no difference now.

today= bad day.

very very sick. but still, went school, because huimin told me that today got phototaking, but actually is tomorrow. suck.

took temperature in school, 38.1 degree. ms tan brought me down to the NE corner, take temperature again. vp1 was there, then i flu till tears, he said i cry. i told him it's flu, then he, " give her a mask." wth. but i took it off.

wanted to go home, but grandma not at home, she brought brother to the clinic, waited till 12plus, buay tahan sia, went home. bro suck, he played comp till very late yesterday, today eye swollen, never go school, stupid boy.

Y

am very very very very sick. sianzxzx. never expect will sick. :( veryvery sad.

keep sneezing, my nose is running away. havent go see doctor.

school tomorrow? should i go? i dont know. super tired.

something's went wrong between us. it's never the same.

service, after service, as usual le meridien.

trained back to srg, met up with sylvia and huimin at botak jones opposite swimming complex. cheese potato :)
talked, heart to heart talk together. love is a problem, fussy, messy.
i'm in deep trouble, dead shit.

walked back, went the bridge that time go with lingyeow there. the bridge like bouncy bouncy one, sylvia chase me, i ran to the bridge, when she step on the bridge i jump. haaa then she sit down, wobbly leg yoo haha! then me and huimin kept jumping dont let her come down. :B

:( not happy, am sick. nobody care. my throat, supahhhhhh pain, i dont want talk already. then got flu, no, i bet not swine flu. sad sad sad sad sad sad sad sad sad sad sad sad sad. am going to sleep. byebye.

dont let your emotion control you.

saw this at mr tay facebook, look at mr lam, cool. lol.

watched night at the museum with huimin and zhongyin at amk hub. rate it 4/5. niceee. go watch then you will know. saw sherman at amk hub.

ate lunch, sent zy to mrt. went huimin house, talked, alot. suddenly there's this message "nothing ya." number not save one. i ask him who is it, then replied "winston the great, hahah." i dont even know who the hell he is. then he say what i 16 years old, stay srg. wth. then he say he carebear, say i 16 legal to make love with carebear, wth sia.

if only i can.

morning, met sylvia and huimin, went mac. helin, i went because you top in humanities. i still give you that special tissue okay. hahaha. saw that neighbour again.

sports carnival, two hours, sit there talk.

our class girls played frisbee, three cheers, at least they bother too. the boys played soccer, jq super du lan sia. zzz good job guys. three cheers to clement chanW.J too :D

isaac ran for 100m, fell down, everyone still cheer for him, or mayb they are not.

took photo of miss tan, then she jsut nice got one umbrella next to her, she open the umbrella and block herself. then she say "look how useful my umbrella can be." funny form teacher, she's receiving some award from dolly ong this afternoon, grats tcher. :)

going out with huimin later, super tired now.

falling apart.

got no picture today, super awful day. suck.

poa first two periods. got back paper two, i passed my poa for midyear. not very good. paper two only manage to score 30.5/60. i made super lots mistakes sia. dammit. total, 54.5/100, awful mark. suck. mr lam became a wise man today, maybe only for today. he wrote one the board "once you have chosen your path, there can be no regrets." everyone laugh at it after he write. because he is never serious, to us. after he walked out of the class, kevin walked to the board, and erase the "no". there can be regrets ah kevin, lol.

then chinese, awful mark again, 61/100 for total, plus listening and oral. wth sia. i wonder how i get into the june batch for o level.

art, tio gan. because mid year didnt turn up for art exam. need to write a letter, then give to them, and mom got to meet them on monday, havent tell her yet. she confirm not free one la. mr j. ng, is not happy, because we never bring art work to class, then he sent us to GO and sat there for two periods to reflect. actually also not my problem sia, i want drop of course never bring la. suck.

chem, expected failed.

humanities overall, failed. c-o-o-l. helin top. then his msn nick now is, "630 mac pls come because i top in humans HAHAHAH." ==!

timepractice, home, slept.

i cant forget what had happen, i miss you.

so what if you all saw what i post, you mean i cant post? whatever.

met huimin, breakfast at n&b. school, got back some results.
english- 54/100.
chinese- paper 1 & 2 ; 89/140.
maths- 38/80.
poa- paper1; 24/40.
physics- section b & c; 3/30.
history- 15/50, this is expected, because something happen that day, f.
socialstudies- 28/50.

need to study hard alr. sibei sian.

chinese time practice after school, no time eat, gastric. went home, bathed, slept.

you were once so beautiful.

well, got scolding from mom. actually she's not, she just want me to be good.

i took money from her, cheat. giro receipt this time, my so called dad went to tell her. she realised that she need to pay for the amount for two times. asked me to off the comp, talk to me, speak every single words out of her heart. then i realised, my so called dad and my mom, is not on good terms, they never talk to each other after my grandfather passed away. why? because of money. realistic, they quarrel over money. i take n level, he not suppose to pay for it?

mom said that, she and so called dad is over already. maybe they just hang on because of us, the family. she also said that, my temper say as him, angry, dont talk, keep quiet. got trouble, never say, keep quiet. sad, never say, cry alone. i realise my mom know me well. if only i realise it earlier...

then she told me, she's trying to treat me very good already, what i want she give, she know i cheat her money for very long already, but she didnt want to tell, she know i grew up, i have my dignity. if this happen to somebody else, their parent will beat them up like minced meat. then everytime she nag me, she will say :"no more next time." i swear i cry the moment she said that.

"which mom will let her daugther out so late? 12am still let the daughter go downstair find friend?" i dont now about others, but my mom, she allow me, always. even if i dont want to go home, she's okay with it. i just need to reach home by the next morning. she also told me that, next time if i want to go out, go home changed then go out, if not weekend go out better, until what time she dont care.

i love my mom, my sister, my grandmother, my grandfather. how i wish she got me a better dad. life is not perfect, never will it be. now i need to bear with it, till the world ends. i'm suffering, but who understand? this world is realistic, yet love is innocent.

i love you silly mom.

chinese time practice in the morning. met huilin, vivien and shujuan at N&B for breakfast first. ate chicken sandwich and drink cold soyamilk. then they said i eat all the cold things in the morning. so i came out with a theory that, morning hot, eat old. at night cold eat hot. haha.

time practices sucks! big time. lonely sia, nobody near me can talk to me. huilin sit so far. in the end, i ran to sit beside huilin, one hour plus cant talk, torturing.

went parkway with huimin, cab there. after that cab to kovan, wanted to eat sakae, but cahnged our mind, we went newyorknewyork instead. zhongyin joined us later. he's retarded. he dont like people copy him, but i like copy him. then he always get pissed off. sutpid exbestfriend.

went home, thankyou. slept. till 8 plus.


no one really know.

awesome day. :D

poa paper 1, gg, forgot bring calculator. the paper is full of working. forgot everything. never really study for it, no mood. only look through the notes today morning. i confirm fail poa.

after poa paper, went home first, then went mac to babysit wanjing for huimin for awhile. met huilin, shujuan and vivien, wanted to go her house audi(?), but in the end, change our mind, went amk hub watch movie, watched ramen girl. that movie show, guy that is jerk. sucks.

walked around amk, ntuc, bought kinderjoy for clement, he's upset. poor clement, then bought oldchangkee back for him.

chinese time practices was shit! waste of time, i didnt even do it on my own, i copy vivien's answer. tomorrow still have to go back school for it. 830-10? dont know la, it's shit.


so now i guess, this is where we have to stand. did you regret, ever holding my hand? never again. and at last, all the pictures have been burned, and all the past, is just a lesson that we've learned. i won't forget it, please don't forget about us.

why always like that? i shouldn't, i can't.
what should i do now?

veiled adoration.

well, nothing to do on sunday, reblog with picture.

bishan with sister. she's upset with grace, that's why she jio me out luh, what kind of sister, her grace is more important than me. but i think friends are more important to me too. haha.

love you la sister.
_________
ps, cyberdome with wb, clement, kevin, jjay, jerome and anna.

jerome and anna left at 12 am plus, they went to chase the last bus.
went cyberdome with kevin, jjay, wb. ton there. saw pastor shirley & gideon there at like 1am plus. they went there to play l4d, funny. hahaha. played till 4am plus then i stop alr, see them play dota, l4d. then they slept alr. yes, slept at cyberdome.
wait till morning 6am trained home.

slept till 3 plus, till hungz called me to go pukka, but tmr got paper one poa, sorry ah hungzhou. WTF?



and lastly, clement, dont drink almond milkshake already, drink oreo vanilla instead. :D cheer up la dey.

through the night.

WEEHOO, am at cyberdome now with jjay, wb and kevin. not going home. :D mom say okayyyyy.

after svc, met sis at j8. ate lunch, walked arnd, home, slept.
woke up, met clement, wb, kevin. ps arcade, maxtune. plus jjay, jerome and anna.

went centerpoint mac, then cyberdome.

- W.J - says:
and i tell u i dont like almond milkshake

- W.J - says:
although i drink it everyday?

- W.J - says:
lol

[c=#FF0080][u][b] Huilin(+g), kauchaomai [/b][/u][/c] says:
okay == so this show how much you dont like almond milkshake?


i miss you.

two hours in between the two papers. tawpok session. they went in co room to play the drums lol. kevin kenna scare by the bursting of balloon then end up kenna tawpok also hahahahah . fun, joy and laughter. no sex . zzz

c prayermeet was great. met a tcher from swiss cottage sec. home. super tired.

tmr 830am flagday at hougang.

get well soon.

Alright , blogged a little about today first, will update again when i'm back from suntec, c.prayermeeting. mom found out i went church. well, that's great. i dont need to hide anymore. i told her i want to go for the camp yesterday, today she asked again, i told her i want to go. see how then.

physics paper today, haah gone, totally never study. i wrote rubbish. one question both part a and b i wrote the same working, mayb one will works? jsut anyhow la. chinese paper, boring passage, but quite easy, because mr ng set one.

after papers, stayed back for poa ssp. they say alot fail paper 2. nevermind, will still study for paper one no matter what.

play bball awhile then started raining, went cg.

it's okay.

stripes? ZZZ

cheese , ex bestfriend :B

went out find huimin and zhongyin.

went jalan for swingggggggggg. has been long since we last went there.

walked zy to mrt, walked past zhss back gate, the ish there. wave to clement, hahaha.

i miss basketball. three cheers for you.

vague memories.

yesterday, paper ended at 915. went central n&b sit down talk with huimin.
went huimin house, cook potato. almost burn her kitchen down. we burnt two cloths and two tissue. in the end, gave up, ask her maid to cook instead.

after awhile, met sylvia, accompanied her for lunch, then went home sleep.

woke up, went out for maths. thanks. :)

came home, didnt use the comp, mom said no. but still bro and sis used before she's back home. cant be bother to ask her let me use. sat down do maths till 12 then go sleep. no mood.


you said it takes a thousand years to forget the love, but you took one day to forgot all about me. but it's okay, i'll be fine.
or maybe that's not you.
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when iam sleeping. jq called at 5.58am, asked me help him report to GO, say he's not sitting for the paper. called at 1.12pm, tell me he's at clubbing. but the fact is he is at the shop and save near his house ==. his nose ran away. take care friend, accompanied you go smoke soon hahahaha.

maths paper, 2 hours. the paper can say easy. i mean like for four years in zhss, this is the easiest paper. or mayb this year got study abit on maths. but still i think i will fail. cant be bother.

didnt go for art paper, because it's a waste of time to sleep there and do nothing for 3 hours. kevin didnt go for it too.

went mac, huilin laugh, green cat? on the bush? and also that girl, 24hours never sleep, skinny and tall. that's stupid. huiling minus g equals to huilin. zzz k lame.

went home, slept. woke up, went lunch with sister. huimin cheer, get off the roller coaster :) i mean, ask him to bring you to sit a aeroplane instead, a smooth one.

physics, nah, not going to study.

i'm so going to play. play. play. play. play. play. play. play.

no love.

sweetheart hero.

thankyou.

screwed up, poa and history. kept thinking and thinking. shujuan it's not your fault, as you say there's no one to blame. anything for you then.

after both paper, saw jq, then go mama shop there, sylvia go home put books, jq go hoohoo, ....... .

accompanied jq wait for bus, then went mac with sylvia, met shaobin there.

back to school, study at library. dont know why, i tend to laugh when i'm not happy. disguise.
after awhile, moodless.
met huimin, walked around, talked. stalk people. LOL.

chemistry paper tmr. i'm so going to drop art. going tell tcher abt it tmr. approve it or not, i dont care. i'm not going to do art, waste of time.

i can’t get close if you’re not there

i can’t get inside if there’s no soul to bare

i can’t fix you, I can’t save you

it’s something you have to do

i'll let you go, i'll set you free.

***please see.
left, kevin. right, that boy. they wore the same outfit. black shirt and white pant with black stripe. "kevin's brother." ?
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went bishan , met wb, kevin and clement. they play arcade first. then went library, no space, full house. went mos burger. play bejewel while they study. study abit, went back arcade, they tune again. four of us play mario cart, always last.

bus 58 back srg. accompanied clement, interchange. then dessert, saw ginger and boyf. walked, climbed stairs, strangled, home.


tomorrow poa paper two, not ready yet. history, gone case. stalin ah stalin, eat my shit if you're still alive. kbye.

you can have my heart, you dont have to steal anymore.

this photo super long alr, sylvia birthday, saw this at huimin's blog.
okay mayb will blog after i come back, will see how.

bye, you sucks.