nowadays, day at home is really getting shitty. yesterday kenna hit by mom, scolded for using comp. that fcuking father, hey like he got no right to scold me, he never even talk to me or anything, once he said something it's unpleasant. suck. shouldn't parent be supportive? care? and love their kids? why is mine like this? even if that is really a test from god, i take it, but i failed. cried silently in the room, called sylvia, talked to her, she cheered me up. thankyou.

today, detention, went home. felt alil hot, wanted to on the fan, then the comp and the fan were like connected in the multi plug, my fcuking sister, she fcuking thought i wanted to on the fa, so she shouted at me, then fine. i went into the room, wanted to cry, but can't. is that another test from god?

so i bathed and went out of the house. currently at huimin's house happy, but not happy. i really dont know.

i dont wish to care about a single thing at home anymore. that home is just a place, where i get care from my grandma, sleep, eat and shit. there's no love, no care there. even when i play comp, my brother and sister kp me. if it's huimin's bro, he definitely wont do that. just now i asked huimin's bro something "why you treat your sis so good?" he answered " which brother on earth treat his sister bad one." MINE! oh god, please save me.

i know this post might sound emo to you guys, but really bwg already.

lifting my burden's to you.